One Step Forward, Too Many Backward

Hello there, world!

It feels strange to write a fresh new post on a brand new blog site.  I’ve been twisting in the wind for ages trying to get things started without realizing the most important thing. You just have to do it.  No amount of planning, list-making, or researching will ever prepare you as much as just jumping into the task at hand.

At one point in time, I had a website slash blog published on the internet.  It ran from somewhere in the late 2000s until 2020. Lovingly named Fish in Bowl (dot com), it was based on a hilarious skit that occurred during one of my very nerdy hobbies (tabletop).  It obviously involved a fish and a bowl, but I won’t go on a tangent about that. That’s a whale of a tale for another time.

Trust me, I’m an easy one to distract.  Reading my posts might remind you of Mad Hatter’s tea party.  If you can relate, you probably have ADHD/ADD. Fun times!

Fish in Bowl served many purposes over the decade-plus time it was on the internet.  As an art student in college, I was regularly uploading sketches, doodles, and illustrations.  There was also a not-so-organized jaunt through food blogging.  I love cooking. I love taking pictures of food.  Am I good at combining the two things into a blog? No. Or at least, I thought I wasn’t. I didn’t put enough time, effort, or research into it.

Somewhere along the way, my ex-husband encouraged me to attempt a slice of life webcomic, which sadly went as poorly as my life during that time period.  Somewhere along the way, it was very obvious I was having mental health issues.  I had lost focus in life, dropped out of college, and was constantly struggling with my self-image and purpose.

It took an ER visit, some extreme trauma, and a stent at the in-patient psychiatric hospital to finally get me the diagnosis I’d so desperately needed most of my life.  Bipolar Disorder.  With a splash of Generalized Anxiety Disorder. And oh, right, PTSD from events that I won’t go in-depth about in this post.  Medication, years of therapy, and time have been miraculous.

So, I suppose the long-drawn-out point I’ve been trying to make is that my life thus far seems like a series of unfortunate attempts to do something.  One step forward, too many back.  When the 2020 pandemic broke out, it gave me a lot of time to mull over the state of my website.  I decided to take a hiatus, rebrand, and reorganize.

No more backing up.  Time to pull myself up by my bootstraps and move on! A phrase I used to hate hearing, but now realize is so true.  I hope whoever is still reading this will join me on this little journey.  Thanks for your time!