Healing Soul Damage

In the tabletop roleplaying game that I used to play when I lived in Atlanta, there used to be different categories of Traits. Physical traits, mental traits, and soul traits. I know that the creator of the rules still runs sessions of this game, but I don’t know if the game ever was published into a public system. I did some art for it back in the day and also ran some sessions of it at Momocon and Dragoncon. I really miss playing tabletop and running games as well. My creativity doesn’t seem as strong as it used to be …

So one of the points of the game was that physical wounds could be healed if you had some sort of magical ability or even by using mundane methods to mend the injuries. Mental wounds were somewhat harder to take care of due to the nature of fixing your mind or ego. But the truly hard wounds to heal were those dealing with your soul. It’s hard to explain exactly what I’ve been through lately that has damaged me this much, but it’s been hard.

I don’t really have any spoons to do the most simple things.

I really need to work on some tasks that I have on my to-do list, but at the moment, it’s been a trial just to get out of bed each day. My existence seems impossible. My purpose is a mystery. I don’t want to delve into any really dark subjects right now. I have a therapy session scheduled at the end of the week with my counselor! So I’m looking forward to that, despite my weakness, and glaring faults.

I tried to watch some different things online, but I’ve found some difficult. Season Five of Rick and Morty requires a cable provider login. Lame. And a bunch of the movies I’ve searched for is only available by renting them separately from a service. Part of me really misses the ancient days when movies would be available to rent on VHS and DVD from Blockbuster. I did hop over to Tubi to watch some anime.

I liked the Wonderland. It was … a decent story. I’m not sure if I’m jaded, but the plotline was something that was somewhat easy to predict and the twists were exactly what I had assumed. I’m a bit of a fanatic for storylines though, so it might just be my own preconceptions that allowed me to see where the plot was going. It painted a picture that gave me feelings like Miyazaki’s films, but not quite stretching into the home run that would knock it right out of the park.

The Case of Hana & Alice was a great coming-of-age piece. I wasn’t sure what I was expecting from it, but it really did give me some feelings. Sometimes you forget what it feels like when you’re younger. It was super cute, funny, and sad in just the right quantities. Nothing too heavy from this one.

I watched some other stuff as well, but nothing more that I’ll really go into. There were days like this that just helps me mend my mind. I wish it could fix the soul damage, but at the very least fixing my brain to the point where I can struggle through another day is a blessing. I’ll try to be more productive tomorrow. This marks the end of November. Thank you, guys, for reading as always! Catch you in December~!

Published by Erin Seto

Southern Peach 🍑, in her 30’s - Artist 🎨 + Bibliophile 📚 + Geek 🎮 + Nerd 👓 + Animal-Lover 🐾 + Bipolar Disorder 💢 x Anxiety 😨 x PTSD 💣÷ DBT Therapy ✨ + Mental Health Matters 🧠 = ME 👩🏽

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