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Shout out to all the Summer Birthdays! To all the people who understand that no one really celebrated your birthday because everyone was on summer vacation. The teachers never had anything special for summer birthdays the same way that kids who have birthdays during the school year do. I.E. Being allowed to bring cake or cupcakes. Having mini parties during the school day. Etcetera. Birthdays have never been a huge thing for me. I don’t want to sound cynical. I usually make a bigger deal out of other people’s birthdays rather than my own.

One of my most memorable birthdays was in college. I was living at my ex-husband’s fraternity house. The girls in the house put together a little celebration. They got me my first kettle! And threw together a rag-tag Mad Hatter-style party. Everyone gave me a box of their favorite tea and the kettle was something they all pitched in to buy for me. When you’re a broke college student, it’s definitely the thought that counts. Right?

The first year I moved to Tennessee, I hadn’t been living in the state very long. I got here, started my new job, and then had my birthday. My SO and roommate got me this cute birthday cake that year. I made my SO write the happy birthday text on it because it’s supposed to be done with love, right? I still treasure that memory!

As you know, this year, I have COVID and my SO got me a Decadent Italian Creme Cake. No candles or pomp and circumstance this time, but it’s the thought that counts. He’s also taking care of me while I’m sick so that’s been so appreciated. I’m wearing a mask around the house so I don’t make MIL sick. I’ll be semi-quarantined for as long as necessary. I have to help take care of the puppies, but I don’t think I’ll even be able to take them to their vet appointments or anything like that until the COVID has been cleared.

My SO got me a copy of Sonic Origins for my birthday! I might do a review on that later. If you really like the classic 2D Sonic the Hedgehog video games, this one will be right up your alley. I’ve only played it a little bit so far.

I wish I had something insightful about getting older, but it’s been a bit depressing lately. I haven’t had a child yet. And it’s not looking possible. It’s not something I suppose some people would think is a bit deal, but I do lament not having any blood-related children. No matter what anyone says, there’s a huge difference between being a stepparent and being a parent. I don’t have the career I always imagined myself having by this age. Nor did I ever finish my degree. (If I can ever finish knocking down my student loans, I might go back and do a more practical degree.) And my health is not in a place that I’m proud of right now.

I’ve had people make spiteful comments on here saying I’m whining about things I can change. So I want to say I don’t want to whine about those things. I’m remorseful that I’m not in a place that I’m satisfied with right now. June is my depression month so I don’t really have a plan in action, but I’m not going to let this keep me down! I’m aiming to do more! Do better! More better. As my karate sensei always says. Maybe by 40, I can say I’ve at least accomplished one of those things I want to change?

Anywho, thanks for stopping in today!